Are you forcing yourself to follow others in order to be accepted in the group?
To have the same interest, same value of life, fashion sense, food and others even though you are not comfortable and dislikes on something.
“Sun is alone too, but still shines.”
Be yourself, do right things, you don’t need to force yourself to do something you don’t like in order to blend into any group of friends.
Be free and let go all your burden.