Are you setting a high and different standard to people who follow spiritual practice?
Are you assume this group of practitioners are free from all wholesome action?
Are you giving perception that spiritual practitioners are perfect and fully awaken?
Sometimes, most of us love to set high standard and give strict evaluation and judgement to spiritual practitioners. Some even assume that spiritual practitioners might be awaken, free of greed, anger and delusion, free from sickness and others unwholesome action.
Why are we following spiritual path?
We would like to let go our unwholesome action and also free ourselves from greed, anger, delusion, ego and doubt, and enjoy freedom and peacefulness. Some might even shared that before spiritual practice, they don’t have so much unwholesome thoughts arisen in their mind, it become more and more after following spiritual practice. Do you think, is it progress or regression?
Before following spiritual practice, your mind is always not at NOW, wander from past to future. You are even not aware or mindful on the arisen of thoughts. And now with the spiritual practice, your mind is always at Now, it’s so easy for you to discover more and more thoughts arisen and fall. As such, you notice your thoughts, so you might claim you’ve more unwholesome thoughts after following spiritual practice.
One of my teacher shared with us, when he was stay in hospital due to sickness, one of his disciple saw him and the first sentence he said was ” I don’t expect to see you here.” My teacher got a shock with the statement as the disciple assumed that “Monk shouldn’t get sick.”
From my personal experience, one of the incident happened when I was so frustrated with my work and I felt my anger was burning inside, What I did was I threw the calculator on the table, of course it create a “sound”. Immediately, my colleague asked “What happen to you? You are the spiritual practitioner, you shouldn’t behave in such a way, you shouldn’t be angry with yourself.”
Of course, I am a spiritual practitioner who are in the process of learning on letting go all unwholesome thoughts and action. However, I am not fully awaken and moreover, “I am a human being.” I am fully aware on my anger, I repent on my unwholesome action for causing “disturbances” to others and I vow I’ll be more mindful on my action.”
What a great lesson in life that to understand that don’t give higher judgement to spiritual practitioner and don’t assume they are “perfect”. Most important,always look inward and not immediately jump to finding faults in others. Besides, whenever we are wrong, please take repent, not to repeat the same incident again and move on. Don’t stuck, blame and felt guilty in yourself. For my case, there is meaningless to penalize myself again and again for the “anger”, I can’t rewind the time and erase the incident. Whatever happened, let it go, learn, repent and restart. Don’t let the past to control your happiness and peacefulness.